The Body Keeps Score.
This is so random but I was just journaling about expression , and thought about y’all . One thing I have found out about myself is that anxiety , depression , tension in my body , hormonal issues all come from me not expressing myself .. but suppressing to keep it pushing like everything is normal . have y’all ever heard that the body keeps score . YEA it actually does .
To be vulnerable and transparent , for the month of September I have been bleeding for 18 days straight . NO real cause , doctors visits , the whole works and nothing but the birth control option . This has never happened to me before and im actually upset about it because I want to wear my clothes !!! lol but in all seriousness its strange .
But the body keeps score.
I totally forgot that all summer I have been stressed with my business , not knowing the route I should take but feeling like God is calling me to add more . Finically stressed because it’s the summer and no one is getting my most popular service which consist of Lace ( Wig installs ) . But I am being called to do more in this . The family struggles .. sickness , jail time , sibling rivalries . Then the most important part that I hate is having to lean on my partner when im actually MS. INDEPENDENT . ohhhh that part stresses me out the most .
But the body keeps score.
With all that going on in my life and I suppressed it . Now bleeding , I could only imagine what’s going on in your life . What you may be battling . Prayer works yes , and the “ I give it to God” has its place ….. I dont know how to say this because im still learning this myself . Express yourself before your hormones are out of wack like mine , Start feeling depressed , letting anxiety cloud your mind like the annoying spirit that it is , distancing yourself from the very people you need to be connected to .
The body does keep score .
But we will make sure that every tally against us is defended with Expression , Community , Journalling , and Prayer to our Father in Heaven. Im still learning this myself , and I know others may have better answers . Yet and still in Philippians 4:6 “ Do not be anxious about anything , but in every situation , by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving , present your request to God.” So that’s what we will do ! well that’s where we can start . Then finding other ways to relax of your choice .
I just want us all to be okay and whole as our father intends for us .. until my next random thought .
XOXO
-msanayac
